I have discovered why it is I torture my body! I run for my sanity. Oh for those of you who think I am crazy, you should of met me before I started running. Then I found running shoes, pavement and fresh air no matter how hot or cold would seem to calm everything down. If only that second voice in my head would go get some shoes. I think I saved Blue Cross a payout. I deserve a discount on the insurance premium. Note to self, call and talk to them about that.
I missed my long run yesterday due to several things. Poor communication being the first (or so I read in someone else's blog), lack of sleep and again self pity of "why me". So for the rest of the day I felt on edge with everyone. The least little bit of extra noise seemed to just make the hair on my neck want to stand up. I needed my run! I needed pavement beneath my feet and the time spent calming the anxiousness inside me. I needed that time to think and clear my head. At the end of that run I would know that everything in my life that seems so turned upside down at times would be A OK if only I could finish. We rode our bikes almost 15 miles, but it just wasn't the same. Something about cars whizzing by that doesn't give you time to clear your thoughts.
So for those that work too much, stressed, family trouble or just in general need an outlet, try on a pair of running shoes. Sit on the side of your bed, lace them up and walk out the door, take a deep breath, put one foot in front of the other, and I would bet by the end of that run, you feel a release! Therefore, this is why running has become my Rx for whatever it is that bothers me.